Day 12 … The Memory Of Us

In memory of us

To the love that I once held with a tight grip

To the life that we had & was once promised

This is to us.

It wasn’t all bad but it wasn't all good

The long days of silent treatment & short days of passionate vibrations between us.

I don’t to hold on to the pain & anger

Like a bracelet that I don’t want to let go of but I don’t want to wear

Or a song that reminds me of it all good times but also the bad

I want to let go.

Stop living in a loop living on repeat

The cycle needs to end

I want to break it.

Break the chains of past generations acceptability of what is rational love

I can’t sit & make my heart hate you

Even though my mind is resentful to the thought of you

I wanted to place you above others but others were placed above me

You were the one I was dreaming about

Falling out of love

So this is to us.

To the times when our love was so deep that we’d need a rescue team to pull us back to reality

Yet so deep that we lost each other in the darkness

This is to us

And the creation of life that now grows in my womb

but who knew that I would be only going through it

Living it alone day in & day out.

With my reflection & shadow as company

It’s lonely

To have no companion on this journey of raising our children & baby

That all I will ever have is

The memory of us.

Sincerely Yours

Isha A Poet xxx