Day 12 … The Memory Of Us
In memory of us
To the love that I once held with a tight grip
To the life that we had & was once promised
This is to us.
It wasn’t all bad but it wasn't all good
The long days of silent treatment & short days of passionate vibrations between us.
I don’t to hold on to the pain & anger
Like a bracelet that I don’t want to let go of but I don’t want to wear
Or a song that reminds me of it all good times but also the bad
I want to let go.
Stop living in a loop living on repeat
The cycle needs to end
I want to break it.
Break the chains of past generations acceptability of what is rational love
I can’t sit & make my heart hate you
Even though my mind is resentful to the thought of you
I wanted to place you above others but others were placed above me
You were the one I was dreaming about
Falling out of love
So this is to us.
To the times when our love was so deep that we’d need a rescue team to pull us back to reality
Yet so deep that we lost each other in the darkness
This is to us
And the creation of life that now grows in my womb
but who knew that I would be only going through it
Living it alone day in & day out.
With my reflection & shadow as company
It’s lonely
To have no companion on this journey of raising our children & baby
That all I will ever have is
The memory of us.
Sincerely Yours
Isha A Poet xxx